I easily confuse myself

[michaelboy]

There are many good things that I miss. Some of them are unspeakable as they are either too embarrassing or their revelation might hurt the feelings of those around me in an undesirable way. At times, I wonder if I expect more than I should or if I am just an extraordinarily selfish person.

Notwithstanding, I am grateful that I'm able to climb into bed at night -- relatively pain free, snuggle and think about my day. I live in a comfortable environment. I have my sanity (I think..therefore I do, I think). I'm able to work at a part-time job and have two volunteer things that I love doing so very much.

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Missing


A consuming wildfire that spreads inside the chest. It steals the breath – not so much as to kill or injure a person but just enough that even a hundred spoons of Jif® are ineffective in dousing it.

Comments

[tactilemuse]

The un-Jif-able yearning. I used to be addicted to feeling enflamed and I always wonder if that deep burning yearning will come back.

[serafaery]

:) I think you're pretty wonderful.